Ok kids- Colman always says to start any letter with a bit of positive news so... We had an absolutely brilliant thanksgiving celebration at our house this weekend that lasted 2 days! A special shout out to the Gately clan for getting into the true spirit of my favourite American holiday! The house was filled with the joy, love and laughter of 16 adults and 13 children and we loved every second of it:-) we had so much food that it allowed us to do all of it again on Sunday! Indeed, Colman and I feel truly blessed and loved!
So, I woke this morning with my plan in place. Today was the day that I would say goodbye (for now) to my lovely copper red hair. I shed a tear or a few tears (damn vanity!) and told my young fellas that today when they got home that mommy's hair would look like she went to Fat Tony's barber shop. But it's ok because won't I still be beautiful? To which my 8 yr old replied in all seriousness, 'no....you are going to look like a man with strong breasts' --well I laughed out loud (which made him smile and laugh) and when I turned to leave the room, he added 'with a big bum!' aaahhhh from the mouth of babes! But goodness, it felt great to laugh about it. In the end, all the boys agreed that mommy still looks beautiful and they are enjoying feeling the remaining stubble!
Tomorrow is day 2 of 8 cycles. I am apprehensive as most of the 'unknowns' about treatment have been realised and it turns out that I am very sensitive to the chemo drugs and have endured all of the side effects possible. The doctor has assured me that they will mix things up this time to help my body manage better so i am hopeful that he is successful in his chemistry stir up!
While I am apprehensive, I am also strong of faith and mind. I have been so uplifted and sustained by all of the well wishes and prayers. You like me, you REALLY like me!!!! And I love you!
I am putting my anxiety, pain and worry and laying it at the foot of the cross as much as possible. I believe that God is walking by my side as well as His army of guardian angels! I am never alone and I will kick back this time!!
'Cancer cannot cripple God's love. For when we are most afraid, His love calms us; when we feel abandoned, He surrounds us in His presence; when we feel we have lost our way, He lights up the darkness; when we are restless with pain, He soothes us with His touch; when we lose heart, thinking we will never be well again, He restores our soul'. Thanks be to God:-)
All my heart,